Thursday, September 22, 2011

Change of Heart and Location

It is crazy to think that I am moving to China in less than two weeks. For many years I have talked big about moves to places such as New York or Florida or North Carolina, but never followed through because I thought it was impossible to ever leave California or my family. But now, I find myself facing the biggest move of my life and I'd be lying if I said it wasn't terrifying. I would be lying if I said there weren't days when I question my sanity, days when the enemy creeps in and tells me I can't do this, that I will fail. There are days that I actually listen to that voice, but there are also days that I listen to the True Voice. A little over a month ago I was having one of those days of enemy attack in my head, but in my heart I heard this:

Why do you fret, My dear child?
Do you think I will send you where I will not go?
Such a place you cannot find.
Where you are, there I will be.
I called you to this dark land,
But look for Me, I am your light.
When you feel alone, look up.
When you feel afraid, take My hand.
I will give you strength to endure
And peace in even the most tumultuous storm.
Woe to none who go My way,
For eternity is your great reward.

Needless to say, that won out over the talk of failure. It is our nature to doubt, but I know where to find my comfort. I know my purpose is to serve our Father. I know He used the children of SFCV to change my heart and my life forever. I don't know much else, but I am ready for what comes next.